Juggling

Adjusting to three children- it has been interesting to say the least.  I feel like I'm juggling a lot throughout the day.  The kids have been getting up about 7 am, which is a big change.  It's okay though, because the baby is up about that time anyway, so we may as well all start the day.  I will say, it's been great having Dustin home, and I have no idea how next week will go.  We both hit the ground running each day and tag team the kids.  We are officially outnumbered, 3 against 2.  It's been great though.  Truly, it's been hectic, crazy, funny, stressful at times, but truly amazing.  We've laughed and maybe wanted to cry but it's been great and I wouldn't trade these past two weeks together for anything.  It's almost surreal at times that this is my life.  I get to love on my babies all day every day.  We are so, so blessed that it is overwhelming at times.  I know it's going to be harder next week.  I have to say though, I feel great and have so much more energy than I did when pregnant.  I am ready.  Ask me on Tuesday if I'm still ready-ha!  I am jumping in with both feet on Monday, with a trip to get our milk and a dr.'s visit for Henry in the afternoon (for which I don't have a babysitter for the twins yet, but I'm not worried!).  It will all be fine.  Right?  Right!  :-) 
As far as Henry goes, he's doing great.  He does need to gain weight, so we are supplementing him with either pumped milk or formula at each feeding.  I will say, it is hard to nurse with two little ones running around.  He may be more of a formula baby, which is slowly becoming more okay with me.  I don't know why I feel a touch guilty about giving him formula, when the twins had less breastmilk than Henry has already gotten.  It's okay though, I've prayed for peace about it.  I am not super-mom, I am just human and I am tired at times.  My twins are so incredibly healthy and they didn't get much breastmilk (knock on wood!) so I know it will be okay. 
Anyway, we'll see what happens next week because that will be the deciding factor for sure when it's me against 3.  :-) 
As for the twins, they have been great with the baby.  They love him and have to know where he is at all times.  They are great helpers, Carson likes to hold his bottle when he eats.  They both bring me all of his things, like blankies, burp rags, etc.  Being away from them while I was in the hospital was the hardest thing for me.  I had the slowest nurse discharging me on Thursday last week.  Everything else was done and I swear, I was about to lose it waiting on that woman.  She walked in my room and said "You're waiting on me, I can tell by the look on your face.  I'll be right back.".  I had not said one word to her.....I was just SO ready to see my twins.  We got home and I got the biggest hugs and kisses from them.  It was so sweet.  Carson ran up to me, smiled the BIGGEST smile, then backed up and took a running start and ran into my arms.  It was awesome.  Emilynn just kept jumping up and down saying "Momma,Momma".  I missed them SO MUCH!  I'm glad our family of 5 is finally together! 
Well, I'm off to feed Henry once more before bed.  I may be taking Emilynn or Carson or both to the dr. in the morning.  Emilynn coughed all night last night with a barking cough, Carson started coughing a bit today.  If tonight is the same, I am taking them in the morning.  We'll see.  I hope it has passed.  We don't need any sickness. 
I will update more later!