I get asked a lot if I am enjoying being a stay at home mom. We are approaching one year since I actually worked, since I went out about a month before the twins were born last year. It has been a transformation for me, and I can honestly say, I love it. When making the decision to quit working, it was quite scary. All the news talks about are these economic times. It is scary to quit a job in this economy, and I really did enjoy my job and my co-workers. So, it was a very prayerful decision that we discussed at length. Dustin & I both agreed it was going to be best for the babies and we took a big leap of faith. I know now with certainty, I am right where God wants me at this time in my life. Do I miss my job? I miss my co-workers all the time. We spent more time together than I spent at home. Do I want to get up and go to work everyday and drag my babies out of bed, in the cold to a babysitter? No, not really. It takes me forever to get all of us ready to go somewhere. You should see the mad dash to get to church on Sundays at 11 am-that's a whole post in and of itself! God really has provided for our family during this life change and I am constantly amazed at how he provides. I knew right away we were going to be all right when the babies were about 2 weeks old. There was a knock at the door and it was the UPS guy with a big heavy box. I hadn't ordered anything but there he was so I took the box and was truly curious as to what it could be. Well, when I opened it-there was 2 cases of formula! Yes, 2 cases! I was almost in tears because I really felt like it was a sign that we had made the right decision and God was going to provide. (of course the tears had nothing to do with hormones only 2 weeks after having twins....nothing. :-) I knew the NICU nurse had me fill out a form to get a free can of formula. I had no idea 2 cases would be sent our way-amazing! Those were the days of one can per day at $15 per can too, so two cases really helped out. Those are just the financial ways God provides. I also feel like our home is just calmer with me here full time. There are no mad dashes in the mornings, the babies just wake up when they are ready and we start our day. I love that they can play and take their naps in their cribs and I get to see all their firsts. I just truly enjoy taking care of my family. I love to cook for them and just enjoy the simple things. I am not judging anyone who works while they have kids. That was what I had planned to do before I knew we were having twins. I am amazed at moms who can manage it all. For some reason, I can't. I get overwhelmed when I have too much going on. So, we are kind of at a slower pace of life right now and I am enjoying it. Even more so than I maybe had thought I would. If you know me at all, you know how much I loved going and doing things and being social. But too much going on stresses me...I know it sounds like I'm contradicting myself....I am in a way. It's hard to explaing....I'm just weird I guess.
Anyway, I was sitting on the couch this evening reading a devotional book, watching the babies play their latest game which is basically spinning the recliner round and round together, so cute.....and I just felt so peaceful and so happy. They were giggling and "chasing" each other round and round the chair and the house was calm and I thought.....there's nowhere else in the world I'd want to be right now. I have the best job on Earth and I am so, so very blessed to have this opportunity. I am going to soak it all up.....even the silly little things like spinning the recliner......
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