5 weeks to go until our new little bundle arrives! Actually, 5 weeks at most. Who knows if he will come early??? I am getting more excited as it gets closer. I must be wired backwards because most people I've talked to are MORE nervous the second time because they know exactly what to expect. I feel so much more at peace because I DO know what to expect, even though every delivery is different. It was a bit funny at my dr.'s appointment yesterday, because the regular nurses were both out, so it was a different lady and she told me he was going to check me to see if I was starting to dilate. (Sorry if TMI, it's just a fact of life though guys!). I know I had a strange look on my face because I felt like I did. She grabbed my arm and tried to comfort me and told me it would be fine. I snapped out of it finally and said "It's okay, it's not you, it's me. I can't believe I'm having a baby in 5 weeks." I think she still thought I was nuts. It was a reality check I guess. I really can't believe I did or said that. I think it just hit me all at once. It was weird. Anyway, I left the appointment so at peace for some reason. I think I was nervous about the appointment because the twins were born at 35 weeks. I know, I know, they were multiples, but I was still holding that thought in the back of my mind. I was worried I'd walk in to the appointment and leave heading to the hospital, just like what happened with the twins. I had felt bad yesterday morning, then I started worrying about my weight gain, because that was a big factor with the pre-eclampsia. At 34 weeks pregnant with the twins, I had gained 7 lb. in one week with that, plus had high blood pressure, tons of protein in my urine....etc.etc. Anyway, I think once the appointment was over, I could be at peace that this pregnancy IS different, and I hopefully and am praying hard that I won't be faced with another emergent delivery situation. Everything was fine with the appointment and I'm down to weekly appointments now.
I am having an ultrasound next Monday, so I'm very excited about that. I have stacks of ultrasounds from the twins because I was high-risk. I have 2 sets from this baby. :-( I felt like we knew the twins before they were born because their personalities shone through the ultrasounds, even though we didn't know their genders. I feel like I don't know this baby very well, even though I know he's a he. I remember seeing the twins' faces, you could see their hairlines and noses in the 3D pics....it was neat. I am so curious to see what this baby looks like and what his personality will reveal. I know I won't get all that at an ultrasound on Monday, but I at least am excited about the opportunity to see him once more before delivery day. We are doing the ultrasound because of a family history of BIG babies. Dustin was about 10 pounds and all of my neices and nephews were 10 pounds plus, especially the boys. Let's face it, I had 11 pounds of twins in my belly before my body called it quits and the pre-eclampsia started. We don't want to be faced with a surprise like that in the middle of delivery, or be faced with an emergency. So....hopefully we'll get a good estimate. I also want to see how he's laying because I think I know, but I could be totally wrong.
Anyway, I'm off to bed. I'm very tired lately and the little guy must be laying on a nerve in my back, because it is very hard to sleep, my back is hurting a lot at night. No real complaints though......just the usual pregnancy stuff. :-)
Our neice Riley is going to be born in the morning, so Dustin & I will go see her tomorrow night.
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